When I think about it, there’s not really a lot of reasons for me to make films. And that goes for most other artists, at least the ones I know. So why do we do whatever we do? 

We’re basically polluting the internet wuth our sub standard art works, whether that’s film, music, literature, etc. There’s obviously no way all of us are going to “make it” in the big time. Forget big time, we don’t even know if we’re going to ever make anything that even us as individuals are going to be absolutely satisfied with. This is the truth about this profession. It’s extremely uncertain. 

We see our school friends and even family having specific goals which they seem to be reaching swiftly. Artists don’t have such goals. We just want to make that one film or that one album. We have no idea what’s going to happen after that. Definitely not money. Probably not even happiness. 

So why do we do this? Put ourselves through excruciating self doubt and low bank accounts. I think if you’re looking for the answer you’ll never really find it because there really isn’t one. And that’s the point. This is the reason why it’s difficult for us to explain our totally irrational and financially suicidal plans to more rational beings. 

It really doesn’t make sense. At the same time, I think if even you can’t understand why you’re pursuing art of any kind, do what I’m doing, roll with it, all day. I doubt it will give you money or happiness. And that should not be why you’re doing this. If you get all of that along the way, good on you.